1. I left my previous job in May and started working in a new company since July this year. Im loving it, but the amount of stress I get.. its just a bit overwhelming at times. But I do enjoy what I do, I guess I have to be a bit more patient and it does takes a bit of time to get use to.

2. As some of you may know, i’ve been emotionally unstable for the past few months (due to unforeseen circumstances). Was not totally myself for a while and I’ve been trying to pick myself up ever since middle of the year. All I can say is that, Im thankful to have such wonderful and supportive people in my life. I dont know where i’d be without them. Im slowly recovering but not quite there yet. I keep telling myself.. its ok.. this sort of thing.. it takes time… doesnt it?

3. Hmm I was supposed to go for a company trip to Bangkok in 2 weeks time, but due to the flood. My trip is postponed to a later date. I do hope it gets better for the Thai People though. Cant imagine what they have to go through

“Flooding in Thailand now affects 23 provinces across the country, as more than 400,000 homes have been affected since the Nock 10 tropical storm. Thailand’s GDP is expected to drop by about 0.5% this year due to the devastation caused by the floods. The death toll in the floods has risen to at least 136 as flooding from heavy rain continues to affect many provinces throughout the country.”

Always be thankful with what you have. Help others and others will help you too.

Lets pray for Thailand…

Anyway, Off to Singapore with my loved ones this December, then to Melbourne for xmas and NYE to meet my other lovers. Sigh.. I cant wait to get away. Ineedabreak.

till then.

xoxo

I’ve always been afraid of a lot things, a little “kuchirat” as some might say. But as I get older, that part of me of being shy/afraid is slowly fading away. Ive become more confident, more comfortable with myself, trying out and experience new things (Eventhough I know I still have a long way to go and still have a lot to learn. But hey, it takes time). And I cant believe, Im actually doing what Im about to do tomorrow. Gahh!

Will let you know on the details tomorrow.

Well, here’s to a new beginning!

x, sha

Personally, I’ve never experienced it myself. Im not sure if it does or does not exist or it might be just a mere “lust” at first sight. Im sure it has happened to a lot of people but there are others who still believe its just some sort of attraction for one another. It can be from how they look, how they smell, to the way they speak.. etc.

For me & bux? well its definitely NOT love at first sight. I can assure you on that.

It all started when he first came into hartamas in 2004.. We were  about 16 at the time. I saw him walked in my class, and introduced himself to everyone. He sat down a few tables away from mine. I took a glance at him & the initial thought that came through my mind was “ohh this is the infamous sheikh asyraf bux that people have been talking about..’. As he walked pass me, I turned around, saw his pants and said to myself “OMG how tight is his pants??! What is he thinking?!”

and the rest is history …  but look at where we are now (now he’s a handsome boy with baggy pants! yeah!)

Anyway, back to the article about love at first sight.. do you think it exists?

1.  According to a research done in Netherlands, those who experienced love at first sight becomes romantically involved faster than those who had not (Personally, I dont think it works that way. It really depends on how much chemistry you have with one another, or how much involve you are with them)

2. Some say that love at first sight has little to do with romance. Instead, its all about ego. (hahah hmmm im not too sure about this. I really cant say because I’ve never experienced it or know anyone who has experienced it before)

3.  ”We fall in love not from the first sight but the first smell” . Apparently, on a subconscious level, the way the person smells plays a very big part. (To a certain extent, I have to agree on this, it does play a part )

All in all, I think love works in mysterious ways. Whether you fall in love with that person at the first sight, or you gradually fall in love with them after you meet them.. Its really all up to you.

For me, I’d have to know the person first or at least be friends with them before I get into anything else. Its just better like that. Thats how bux & I started off  and I guess it makes us closer that way.

til then

xx

Well I guess the fact that I’ve been really busy with work and I find myself exhausted by 11pm on most days ( I come back from work, eat, take a shower, get ready for work the next day… which means by the time Im done with all that.. its already 11pm.. pffft.. not enough time to do other things!).  Therefore, I treasure nights/days like these, as I can do whatever the hell I want and when I want to without worrying about work/class the next day.

younger days – My dad used to wake us up (my siblings & I) really early in the morning to have our breakfast and then he’d drive us around town til lunch time (dads version of sightseeing) . I remembered it being like a chore to us as that normally meant that we could not sleep in on weekends. On days where he doesnt wake us up, we’d be sooo happy as if we had just won a lottery or something.  hahah! children…

On a different note, ramadhan is finally over and now its raya time .  Let me just summarize on how I’ve spent my raya so far:

Woke up really early in the morning on the first day. Was hoping that I could go to the mosquebut… my body had other plans for me. Damn you PMS!  but anyway, since I couldnt go.. I took my time to get ready. I wore this purple baju kurung which was already laid out for me on my bed. No particular theme this year. My family was wearing all sorts of colours. so I guess.. this year.. its colourful?

Anyway, celebrating raya this year was extra special because its hard to get all my siblings to gather in KL. Last year we celebrated raya in Melbourne. The year before that, my brother and my sister werent able to come back to Malaysia. So, this year, everyone managed to make time and come back to KL for raya.  Even my sister, Ivana, who’s only back from Melbourne for 3 days! crazy girl. But im glad that she’s here It wont be the same without her.

All in all, raya this year has been such a joyous event so far.  Celebrated the first half of the day with my whole family. We ate, we laughed, we asked for each others forgiveness… etc. Then bux came , ask for forgiveness and gave me duit raya. Such a sweetheart la that boy.  I love you!

anyway, after that, my sisters, BIL’s, my mom & my maid packed up our things & headed off to JB. When we got on the highway, there was a massive MASSIVE JAM from KL to Seremban! It took us an extra hour and a half just to get to JB. So we arrived there quite late in the evening. Basically, the rest of the day we went around visiting my grandmother, my aunts/unlcles & my cousins. I was so full that I probably gained 10kg that day!

Its getting kinda late. Will update again when I have the time. Happy Raya everyone!

til then

xx

1. I recently received a confirmation letter from my company! All my hard-work (for the past 6 months) has been paid off. woo hoo. pay-raise & a stable job. what more could i ask for?

2. My sister came back from london about 2 weeks ago & she just found out (today!) that she’s 3 months preggors… which is .. kinda fast. given that ayden was born last year.. and now another baby?? wow its ok..more babies (which means more nephews/nieces)! yay!

3. Went back to JB for raya & now im back in KL.  ill be off til tuesday…  ahhh .. dont you just love holidays?  Now I just need to know how to plan/utilize it well.

4. Was supposed to start studying for my exams a few months ago but now I only have 3 more months left! crazyyy. how am I going to cram everything in just 3 months!! *breathes in and out heavily*… calm down sha. you can do this.. its ok..             ill start……………. tomorrow. yes.. tomorrow!  (hopefully!)

So, thats all for now! will try to find time to blog some more.

In the meantime, selamat hari raya to all the muslims out there! : ) Have a great raya!

p/s: Wore this on the second day of raya. Got it online for about 50% off the original price you see in stores.  heee … Score!!

I love how they designed it. The cutting fits me perfectly & I love how flowy it is… should. buy. more. of. these.

wait. maybe not now. I have a wholeeee list of other things to buy. sighh..  Gotta save up! Maybe next time.

Till then.

xx

9th day of puasa. So far, everythings ok. Its good that im working now. I get to concentrate more on my work & it keeps my mind of everything else. I dont really wake up for sahur but I do stay up & eat (a lot) before I go to bed. The next morning I’d be really tired but somehow after lunch I’d be quite hyper & energetic.. which is .. weird? Maybe my body knows that I have a few more hours to go before I get to eat!

anyway, yeah working during fasting month has been surprisingly good for me. Usually I’d grumble a lot & wouldn’t want to do anything productive til buka puasa time (which is bad). This time is different, maybe because of the environment in the office. Its so cold, that I dont get thirsty… People in the office has been really supportive.. somehow they treat me extra nice! (95% of them are non-muslim) & I get to back early too! weee ~

One of the best things about ramadhan is that u get to go to pasrams! They have all kinds of food/drinks/desserts to choose from. I used to buy whatever that interests me at that time & end up with 5-10 plastic bags. Before this, I tend to spend a lot on food that I dont even eat & end up giving it my maid But this year things have changed, One of it is that I’ve learned how to control myself. I only buy things that I know Im going to eat.. which is quite an accomplishment! so proud of myself! hahah! k lah enough of that.

Other than that, nothing out of the ordinary happened today. Had work, came back home & break fast with my family. Bux on the other hand has been busy flying, so I dont get to see him that often but its ok. its all good. He still comes by at times (even when he comes back from work at 1am) and we’d have our quick supper together before I go back to bed love pls

xx

but thats that.

Moving on………

I know Im here for a reason. A lot of reasons actually. The main thing is to learn, improve myself in any/every way I can, pushing myself & taking my career to the next level.  Of course.. Everyone wants to get “there”, everyone wants to be successful.. heck, who doesnt? I know Im lucky enough to even get here, where I am right now… I’ve got a secure job, understanding boss, helpful colleagues & a nice working environment in the office.  So I cant complain.. Its just the work load has been… well… lets just say it hasnt been easy. I keep telling myself.. everything is going to be ok.. since im still relatively new. heh =P

Everyone goes through this in life. Where you feel like you’re being left alone, in this whole new world. Starting everything from scratch with no one telling you what to do/whats right or wrong. Making your own decisions. Yes. its scary at times. I mean, what if you make the wrong decision. Its not just going to be on you, this time its going to be on the whole company. *yikes* But then at the end of the day, everyone makes mistakes, learn from it.

I must say, Its been a whole new experience for me. I’ve gained a lot of knowledge, learn new things..  not to mentioned… made a lot of pretty bad mistakes along the way (many many more to come!) but all I can do now is improve myself and move on. No point thinking about it over and over again.

.. hmm Here’s to working life. To others out there who’s going through the same thing. Dont ever give up in whatever it is you’re doing. If you’re passionate about something, go for it. Dont let anyone bring you down : )

til then.

xx

Its ok  this time it’ll be different… (i think)

xx

There are so many things to write about but I always end up writing it halfway through. So, I guess for now.. Im just going to start writing it bit by bit (at least something!)

Well,most of you know that Im already working. At first, I wasnt very keen with the idea of me “working” but I know I have to do it some day anyway. So why not start now? .

So I have entered into this whole new world, full of challenges, learning about “life”, growing up, going through so many obstacles… &  I am slowly getting the hang of it. There are days when I absolutely love it, but there are some days that I dont.

I do like being in this line of work and the people I work with are very friendly & helpful. Not all of them came from the same background as I did. Some took up engineering, Some took IT, Some took marketing..

Basically, Im a research analyst working in the equities section covering non-commodity stocks in Australia. Everyday, I get in the office by 7:30am, attend a conference call from Australia, do a bit of research on the bloomberg terminal, write up a report, read reports from other brokers, attend research meeting .. stuff like that.

I must admit, it does get quite demanding at times.. But Im still new at all of this and still in the process of learning. So, its okay… insyaallah ill get the hang of it soon!

Here’s a picture of how my desk looks like in the office (However, it does not look like that anymore, I’ve changed my monitor and my desk now is full of papers!)

xx